This week I have been a luteal-induced tornado person. That aside, I have started to bleed and am softening more and more every hour.
When I move past the crunchiness, I find gratitude. I can’t stop thinking about how incredible the transition from winter to spring to summer feels. When the weather turns warm, the glimmer in my soul returns, my heart opens up, & my body softens where I didn’t even realize I was bracing.
The nesting of winter always treats me well until it doesn’t, and then I am suddenly and intensely ready to fly the coop. This is also how it goes when I exit my luteal or menstrual phase and enter into follicular.
This spring has felt really nourishing for me. There have been hard moments and bigger things to contend with, but still, I can feel parts of myself unfurling—all the little seeds I’ve planted coming to life & fruition.
As I go through the at times painstaking yet deeply fulfilling process of taking off my mask and putting down my shields, I rest easy knowing that there is no arbitrary timeline I must follow. There is no arrival, no due date, no deadline. I get to create the timeline & this does wonders for my sense of self-trust.
When I lean into the steadiness of my self-trust instead of getting swept away by a tornado of my own creation, life gets to flow. The shields melt and then it is just me and myself, an honest inventory of what’s actually happening.
In the tornado, I want to blame blame blame—find any external factor to pin a story or sensation to—but no. Beneath the shield, I always find myself with a clenched fist, holding the hose in half, stifling my own life force. Instead of shame, what helps is seeing this part of me for what she is: an inner child or a bruised teenager, trying to get my attention, saying, “You missed this! We’re over here!”
Every day, I remember how to quell the tornado and unclench my jaw. Every day, I find my way back with a little more ease and a little more love than the day prior.
On the topic of kinking my own hose, here’s an excerpt from an old IG post I made on this 💧🌾
how often do you kink your own hose?
restrict the flow of life force energy moving through your body?
clamp your creative spirit to avoid judgment?
block your truest essence?this is your permission slip to gently unkink the hose
to come home to yourself
welcome the flow
and nurture your spirit
Wishing you all a day, week, month, year of a nurtured spirit and freely flowing life force energy.
In honor of my 1st anniversary of Sacred Attention, I am leaving this week’s IN THE PORTAL and EARTH SPELLS sections open for all subscribers. Thank you for supporting 💌
Here are some things that have been in my portal of delights ~
💖 What is Love? — I was utterly sobbing at the end of this video
☁️ Chappell Roan’s cover of Dreams & Tiny Desk performance — as a side note, I feel like I had never heard of Chappell Roan until March or April of this year, and WHAT a delight to learn about her!
🌱 Alice Phoebe Lou covering Walk on the Wild Side
🤲🏼 The Year of No Grudges by Andrea Gibson — a balm for the heart
🔻 I haven’t been incorporating the Drama Triangle in my work a ton lately, but I loved this very simple breakdown of how it can show up in our lives
🪔 This delicious 432hz healing frequency called You Are The Light
🎤 Maggie Rogers covering Joni Mitchell — just wow
💠 Am I Hot Enough for a Good Life? by
🫧 10 Steps Toward Becoming an Imperfectionist by
🌲 This delicious piece by
🦋 Have been loving
’s thought-provoking and interesting pieces🏀 Kate Martin thriving on the Aces makes me sooo happy — I <3 the WNBA
🌷 TULIP SPELLS ✨
The inside of this tulip is spellbinding. The colors… the textures… the magic! Let this be a spell for noticing the tiny details in your day-to-day.
<3
Christie